That was a difficult question to ask... I apologize...
[ he recognizes that response, because he's had the same before... ]
For what it is worth, I understand that feeling... getting used to relying on others or rather having others to rely on, it is difficult. Trust is such a precious thing...
[ he smiles, happy to know she has people whom she can rely on now. MISS NAHIDA YOU'RE SO NICE YOU DESEVE ONLY GOOD THINGS.
ah. his turn... that's fair. ]
It was... yes. Growing up I really only had my grandparents, the people in our village were kind to me... but it wasn't til meeting Mr Eiden that I truly learned what having a "friend" was...
[ he’s gotten himself to this point… there’s no going back now! plus… ]
Ah… it’s because of my serpent lineage… I’m working really h-hard to learn how to control it, but sometimes… [ he looks down at his hands ] sometimes it’s too much… and I lose control…
[ he looks up at her, eyes pleading, their weekly task at the forefront of his mind suddenly. ]
[ nahidaaaaaaaaa :sobs: it is comforting…. that paired with their red string connection, he visibly relaxes a bit. ;;
he nods and takes a deep breath, eyes back to being focused on his hands. ]
…T-there was an incident some time ago, at the mansion where I found myself possessed…. by a ghost and he came very close to biting Mr Eiden… i-it turned out he was merely trying to scare us!! And I was able to break through and stop him, however….
[ his expression twists, looking pained and horrified. ]
After it was all over I… I found myself lingering on that moment and started to wonder what exactly Mr Eiden tastes like… The serpent in me grew hungry and I soon found myself thinking… I want to devour him… Then he’ll be all mine… [ closes eyes and shudders ] It was horrifyingly selfish…
well, she'll move her hand from his arm to actually take his hand and squeeze it gently, then; she's hoping that their connection this week will help ease that pained and horrified expression away from his face.]
...you're very strong, Yakumo. [...] Because... even with that desire, even with the pull of those memories... Eiden is still right here with us. You may have wanted it, but you never acted on it.
What's important isn't necessarily our feelings and on our desires. What's important is how we choose how to act on them... or not to act.
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sits with her!! ]
It certainly adds to the unexpecting nature of this place, I suppose. Seems like everyone had fun, at least.
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[WHY IS THAT WHAT SHE HAS A PROBLEM WITH AND NOT THE SHADOW THAT WAS BULLYING HER. it's fine.]
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That is a fair point... Ah, well for now, rest is the best option.
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[she sighs]
...I wonder if all our future missions are going to be like that. It was pretty different from decorating our warehouses.
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[ who is to say!! ]
At least we have each other to relay on.
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[she sips at the drink he brought.]
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Are you used to having these many people to relay on, Miss Nahida?
[ DO YOU HAVE FRIENDS ]
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but it still gets nahida to look down at her lap and go quiet.]
...I'm... getting used to it.
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That was a difficult question to ask... I apologize...
[ he recognizes that response, because he's had the same before... ]
For what it is worth, I understand that feeling... getting used to relying on others or rather having others to rely on, it is difficult. Trust is such a precious thing...
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[...]
Was it that way for you, too?
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[ he smiles, happy to know she has people whom she can rely on now. MISS NAHIDA YOU'RE SO NICE YOU DESEVE ONLY GOOD THINGS.
ah. his turn... that's fair. ]
It was... yes. Growing up I really only had my grandparents, the people in our village were kind to me... but it wasn't til meeting Mr Eiden that I truly learned what having a "friend" was...
[ his cheeks go a little pink. ]
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look at those cheeks! how cute. nahida smiles.]
Eiden must be very important to you, then.
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he nods. ] Erm… yes, very.
[ he looks nervous, like he’s considering something, and after a brief moment he speaks… ]
He is my most important person…. And I worry, everyday, about accidentally hurting him…
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Hurting him? But... why would you need to be worried about something like that?
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Ah… it’s because of my serpent lineage… I’m working really h-hard to learn how to control it, but sometimes… [ he looks down at his hands ] sometimes it’s too much… and I lose control…
[ he looks up at her, eyes pleading, their weekly task at the forefront of his mind suddenly. ]
Miss Nahida…. can you k-keep a secret…?
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[she reaches over to put what she hopes is a comforting hand on his arm.]
...yes, I can keep a secret for you.
tw: vore…. im sorry
he nods and takes a deep breath, eyes back to being focused on his hands. ]
…T-there was an incident some time ago, at the mansion where I found myself possessed…. by a ghost and he came very close to biting Mr Eiden… i-it turned out he was merely trying to scare us!! And I was able to break through and stop him, however….
[ his expression twists, looking pained and horrified. ]
After it was all over I… I found myself lingering on that moment and started to wonder what exactly Mr Eiden tastes like… The serpent in me grew hungry and I soon found myself thinking… I want to devour him… Then he’ll be all mine… [ closes eyes and shudders ] It was horrifyingly selfish…
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well, she'll move her hand from his arm to actually take his hand and squeeze it gently, then; she's hoping that their connection this week will help ease that pained and horrified expression away from his face.]
...you're very strong, Yakumo. [...] Because... even with that desire, even with the pull of those memories... Eiden is still right here with us. You may have wanted it, but you never acted on it.
What's important isn't necessarily our feelings and on our desires. What's important is how we choose how to act on them... or not to act.