[she wipes at her face with a paw, but smiles a little.]

It's hard, is all. I don't want anyone to think anything bad about Gerard, but he made me promise I'd let them. Because it's safer if everyone thinks the person they were mad it is the one who's dead now, but it's like -

Everything he did was for us. He isn't cruel. He never even wanted to start killing people, he thought we should try to find another way. I'm the one who wanted to. And he - he just didn't want to let me do it without him.