...before last week, I thought that I had just lost them after exhausting most of my power in the desert, and that was why I only remembered the last five hundred years of my life.
[...]
But... I know now that isn't true. I saw memories last week that... I hadn't been able to remember on my own. Do you remember when I came back from that "special mission" a few weeks ago, and I looked older? That was me... but it wasn't me, too. It was a past incarnation of me. This existence, "Lesser Lord Kusanali," has only existed for five hundred years. "Greater Lord Rukkhadevata" was who I was in the old samsara, and she created me so that I would erase the memory of her from Irminsul. When I did, the world changed to reflect the new reality - that "Greater Lord Rukkhadevata" had never existed, and that "Lesser Lord Kusanali" always had. So the songs I know now... I know them beause "Greater Lord Rukkhadevata" did, but "I" also never learned them.
[there's a beat.]
Sorry... it's a little complicated. I'm still trying to figure out what it all means.
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But... I know now that isn't true. I saw memories last week that... I hadn't been able to remember on my own. Do you remember when I came back from that "special mission" a few weeks ago, and I looked older? That was me... but it wasn't me, too. It was a past incarnation of me. This existence, "Lesser Lord Kusanali," has only existed for five hundred years. "Greater Lord Rukkhadevata" was who I was in the old samsara, and she created me so that I would erase the memory of her from Irminsul. When I did, the world changed to reflect the new reality - that "Greater Lord Rukkhadevata" had never existed, and that "Lesser Lord Kusanali" always had. So the songs I know now... I know them beause "Greater Lord Rukkhadevata" did, but "I" also never learned them.
[there's a beat.]
Sorry... it's a little complicated. I'm still trying to figure out what it all means.