[ when he's not having a panic attack he will feel some kind of way about this - uncomfortable, maybe. it's not nahida's fault. he's just not used to this, not used to being seen, having his carefully constructed labyrinth ripped violently away from him to reveal the softer core underneath. he'd rather die than tell people about the things that have ever happened to him, considering he barely remembers them himself.
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he takes another breath as he starts to regulate, and wipes his hand across his mouth. it's trembling; he doesn't pay any attention to it. ] You shouldn't have had to see that.
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he takes another breath as he starts to regulate, and wipes his hand across his mouth. it's trembling; he doesn't pay any attention to it. ] You shouldn't have had to see that.