We're six weeks in. I think you've made plenty of friends in that time, you know? People just want answers, to understand, and most people still with us aren't likely to go off.
[ settling in with her and taking a sip of his milkshake. ]
Did you choose to do it? Libby showed us the text she got that threatened to erase all of Sweet Theory, so I know that those were floating around.
...I chose it. I don't... I don't know for certain that it's true, but some of what I heard... it made it sound like it would be bad if it seemed like we weren't trying to play the Game the way it was meant to be played. And that there might be more we could do for everyone, overall, if we weren't... "too pacifistic".
[...]
So... I wanted to help. But I think, in the end, I may have done more harm. [...] I'm just glad someone who didn't do anything isn't paying the price for what I did.
... yeah, I can think of a few of the things around here that have shown up that would make you think like that. I think it was a message that I heard from Teacher Shen, after that particular trip, that most stands out.
[ non-judgmental, while he listens, sort of... stirring the straw for a moment as he mulls it over. lets her say her piece. hoping that they wouldn't be kill shy, or hesitant, hoping that they would tend towards violence. ]
I don't really know. I don't think any of us can, even at this point. But you wanted to protect your teammates, and ensure that they could keep going forward.
That? That I get. You did what you thought had to be done.
[ he reaches out, setting a hand on her small back.
there's such a heavy heart, hidden inside such a little god. ]
Did they tell you they were disappointed in you, Nahida? Because... look, Fei Du agreed to go off with Gerard and Haru, the night he died. I'm going to be angry with him for a while, but I'm not disappointed - especially since I knew why he did it. They know you better than anyone here.
[ ... ]
We're almost at the end, but. I'll keep an eye on the two of them until you can be reunited with them. In exchange, you make sure you keep an eye on Fei Du for me on the other side. Alright?
no - they didn't tell her that. but she doesn't think that they would - both of them are too kind to say that when they know she's going to die tomorrow.]
...I'll do what I can for him, I promise I will. [she rubs at one of her eyes, trying to fight back tears.] Thank you... for looking out for the two of them.
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[ settling in with her and taking a sip of his milkshake. ]
Did you choose to do it? Libby showed us the text she got that threatened to erase all of Sweet Theory, so I know that those were floating around.
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...I chose it. I don't... I don't know for certain that it's true, but some of what I heard... it made it sound like it would be bad if it seemed like we weren't trying to play the Game the way it was meant to be played. And that there might be more we could do for everyone, overall, if we weren't... "too pacifistic".
[...]
So... I wanted to help. But I think, in the end, I may have done more harm. [...] I'm just glad someone who didn't do anything isn't paying the price for what I did.
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[ non-judgmental, while he listens, sort of... stirring the straw for a moment as he mulls it over. lets her say her piece. hoping that they wouldn't be kill shy, or hesitant, hoping that they would tend towards violence. ]
I don't really know. I don't think any of us can, even at this point. But you wanted to protect your teammates, and ensure that they could keep going forward.
That? That I get. You did what you thought had to be done.
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...I feel like I really let them down, though. Kaveh and Shu, and... everyone else who believed in me, too.
[she looks down at her feet.]
I won't be there to protect them anymore. All I've left them with is heartache.
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there's such a heavy heart, hidden inside such a little god. ]
Did they tell you they were disappointed in you, Nahida? Because... look, Fei Du agreed to go off with Gerard and Haru, the night he died. I'm going to be angry with him for a while, but I'm not disappointed - especially since I knew why he did it. They know you better than anyone here.
[ ... ]
We're almost at the end, but. I'll keep an eye on the two of them until you can be reunited with them. In exchange, you make sure you keep an eye on Fei Du for me on the other side. Alright?
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no - they didn't tell her that. but she doesn't think that they would - both of them are too kind to say that when they know she's going to die tomorrow.]
...I'll do what I can for him, I promise I will. [she rubs at one of her eyes, trying to fight back tears.] Thank you... for looking out for the two of them.
As long as they're safe, I... I'll be okay.