she nods, though, because i just remembered sumeru does in fact have a ban on experimenting and researching mechanical life-forms, prOBABLY FOR REASONS LIKE THIS ONE.]
...it seems like she has a long and difficult road ahead of her.
...yeah. I thought, at first, it was... a break from that. I'm tired of it-- of killing them myself or not being able to save them. We've been trying to save humanity, but we couldn't ever protect the people close to us.
[some break this has turned out to be. right down to that part-- it's the same.]
I want to do that here, though, if I can. If there's any way.
[for a second he kind of-- hesitates. debates internally, before-]
You said it's probably not safe to write off that message. But I've been thinking about it, and... I know I'm not the best with these things, but it seems to me like if anyone is going to do something, they have to know what they're going to do. Everything's been all spread out so far, unless it was the same team for both last time.
[he's picking at his sleeve.]
It's not gonna work if someone just starts doing something reckless. Right? So what I keep coming back to is... we already have one because of Yuyu. I don't know exactly how I feel about the other teams who do besides us. I do know how I feel about you three, and it's that... if it turns out that what it said is real, I think we would all be safe if it was you.
[which he feels like she won't like (and neither would kaveh), for... probably the same reasons he trusts them, but there's a reason he isn't saying this to kaveh.]
[is she understanding him correctly? would he really feel like they would all be safe if her team went out and started sharpening their knives? hearing it is - well, it's a little flattering, in a sick sort of way; to be trusted to that extent is no small thing.
but the idea of it also makes her feel a little ill, which is... probably part of why he trusts her.
still. she can see the logic in what he's saying, too. it's important to have a plan, to not do anything too reckless, and to not spread the points out too far. if what they'll need at the end of all of this is a massive amount of points for the game's victor to spend on the outcome they want...
then yes, whoever does pursue that option really does need to know what they're doing.]
Thank you for... saying that. I'm sure it couldn't have been easy to say. [...] I know I would... do my best to save everyone, if my team did win. But... I also know that my team isn't anywhere near first place right now.
If we were to get there... would you still trust in us? Or would it make you lose your faith in us?
[...because the only way to get there, if they're understanding the messages correctly - it's to kill.]
I've been talking about it with Yuneyuze. We aren't settled yet on what we think as a whole, so... don't mention it to them? I just-- I needed to go over it with someone else, anyway.
[who better than the local actual god of wisdom? a couple moments of quiet pass there, though.]
What I think is that even if they decided they wanted to, we wouldn't make it. We have a pretty huge disadvantage.
[everyone who's still around still has at least one healer but tbd, and them.]
But that doesn't mean I'm not willing to do what we have to, if that really is it. Maybe only one team can get the points for that, but it doesn't have to be mine.
...I know you're not gonna want to. I don't exactly want to, either, but...
I guess I'm more afraid we'll choose wrong and run out of time, than anything else, and I'm not the kind of person who can confidently decide which is the right choice.
...I would be a little worried, if someone wanted to. Not if they wanted to save everyone, but... if the erasures itself seemed to be what they looked forward to.
Luckily, I don't think anyone here is really like that. [...] But you're right. This isn't the time for rash action, but it is the time for decisive action.
I'll think on what you've said to me, Netzach. And while I may not be able to say if I do or don't end up doing it, I can say that if I do... I'll do my best to live up to the faith you've shown in me today.
anyway, she just - stands there for a moment, stunned. there are tears in her eyes, but they're... happy tears, mainly? she's incredibly touched that he's saying this to her at all, even if it's right on the heels of telling her it's a-ok if she does a murder.]
...thank you. For saying that. Hearing it really means a lot to me.
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[hmm.]
Do you think... there will be an end to it for her, too?
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She's become more human, but... Angela's still trying to learn about a world that's not going to welcome her living in it.
[it could break her, in the end, the reality of it.]
They broke the AI Ethics Amendment to make her. Machines aren't supposed to be that close to humans, but she was as close to one as they could get.
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she nods, though, because i just remembered sumeru does in fact have a ban on experimenting and researching mechanical life-forms, prOBABLY FOR REASONS LIKE THIS ONE.]
...it seems like she has a long and difficult road ahead of her.
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[why does it always have to end with death?
and now here, too, it's... the same.]
If I get out of here, I'm just going back to having to kill people again.
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Is that why... at the start, it sort of seemed like you didn't want to go back?
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[some break this has turned out to be. right down to that part-- it's the same.]
I want to do that here, though, if I can. If there's any way.
[for a second he kind of-- hesitates. debates internally, before-]
...hey, Nahida? You know I trust you guys, right?
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[it's just a matter of if there even is one, at this point.
she watches him as he hesitates, and then when he speaks up - she nods once.]
I do. And I trust you, too. But why are you saying that now, out of the blue?
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[he's picking at his sleeve.]
It's not gonna work if someone just starts doing something reckless. Right? So what I keep coming back to is... we already have one because of Yuyu. I don't know exactly how I feel about the other teams who do besides us. I do know how I feel about you three, and it's that... if it turns out that what it said is real, I think we would all be safe if it was you.
[which he feels like she won't like (and neither would kaveh), for... probably the same reasons he trusts them, but there's a reason he isn't saying this to kaveh.]
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Netzach...
[is she understanding him correctly? would he really feel like they would all be safe if her team went out and started sharpening their knives? hearing it is - well, it's a little flattering, in a sick sort of way; to be trusted to that extent is no small thing.
but the idea of it also makes her feel a little ill, which is... probably part of why he trusts her.
still. she can see the logic in what he's saying, too. it's important to have a plan, to not do anything too reckless, and to not spread the points out too far. if what they'll need at the end of all of this is a massive amount of points for the game's victor to spend on the outcome they want...
then yes, whoever does pursue that option really does need to know what they're doing.]
Thank you for... saying that. I'm sure it couldn't have been easy to say. [...] I know I would... do my best to save everyone, if my team did win. But... I also know that my team isn't anywhere near first place right now.
If we were to get there... would you still trust in us? Or would it make you lose your faith in us?
[...because the only way to get there, if they're understanding the messages correctly - it's to kill.]
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[who better than the local actual god of wisdom? a couple moments of quiet pass there, though.]
What I think is that even if they decided they wanted to, we wouldn't make it. We have a pretty huge disadvantage.
[everyone who's still around still has at least one healer but tbd, and them.]
But that doesn't mean I'm not willing to do what we have to, if that really is it. Maybe only one team can get the points for that, but it doesn't have to be mine.
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[she can do that much, at least. even if his trust in her is a little painful. she likes it when people have faith in her, but...
this makes her feel... sad. by even considering it, it feels like she's betraying him, somehow.]
If you don't think it has to be your team that earns points, then... what do you mean by willing to do what you have to...?
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[she. cannot really deny that, yeah.]
...you're right, if... that was something my team did, we probably would.
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I guess I'm more afraid we'll choose wrong and run out of time, than anything else, and I'm not the kind of person who can confidently decide which is the right choice.
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...I would be a little worried, if someone wanted to. Not if they wanted to save everyone, but... if the erasures itself seemed to be what they looked forward to.
Luckily, I don't think anyone here is really like that. [...] But you're right. This isn't the time for rash action, but it is the time for decisive action.
I'll think on what you've said to me, Netzach. And while I may not be able to say if I do or don't end up doing it, I can say that if I do... I'll do my best to live up to the faith you've shown in me today.
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[that's what makes him willing to say it at all.]
I never really believed in much, you know? There are religions in the City, but it just wasn't ever on my mind.
Sometimes talking to you makes me feel like I understand how people can have that kind of faith.
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anyway, she just - stands there for a moment, stunned. there are tears in her eyes, but they're... happy tears, mainly? she's incredibly touched that he's saying this to her at all, even if it's right on the heels of telling her it's a-ok if she does a murder.]
...thank you. For saying that. Hearing it really means a lot to me.
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[oh no he didn't think she would cry about it
help, he's at a loss with this one.]
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I'm sorry. That's just... not something I have heard very often. It caught me by surprise.
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[she deserves it? what is wrong with people where she's from.
can he hug her because he's going to try to hug her.]
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