I think... Justice is probably only one ahead of my team. I think Fukuzawa was probably their first culprit. [she looks down] Putting that on Froggystyle's shoulders is a lot. If I could, I would take the burden from them myself.
...do you still think my team is a good choice for this? Even though we're far behind?
I do, if we can manage it, but if you think there's a better choice, I'd... probably follow you on that.
If it really came to it-- you wouldn't have our help anymore, but we could give you a pretty big boost, if Yuzu agreed. Help you out, then, uh... give you the points from erasing us both. I'd rather they go to someone we choose than just losing one of us.
[her ears droop at that. what did she just say!! about talking lightly about your death!! netzach!!]
...mm. If we're going to do something like that, we need to make absolutely sure that whoever gets that boost is someone we can trust to use the points the way that would be best for the group as a whole. Whether that's my team or another... I'll definitely let yo know.
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But I'd really... I'd really prefer to earn the points another way. You're my friend, and I care about you. And I feel the same way about Yuzuriha. WHen we get to the end of all of this, I want you to be at my side, instead of somewhere off in the distance, waiting for me to bring you back.
It'll be more effort and risk to do it the hard way. You saw how determined Wenzhou was to catch them-- Nahri, too.
I want to live, don't get me wrong, and I want to be able to actually help instead of just wait for you. I'm not exactly in any hurry to risk everything. But it wouldn't be the first time I gave my life up, except this time...
This time it would mean more than just-- being okay with dying if it all went wrong. I didn't think I had anything to live for, then.
A lot of its thinking and mindset was influenced by the forbidden knowledge it had been polluted with. I don't know if the way it thinks will change as it rests, now that it's been healed, but... even if it doesn't, that's alright with me, as long as Sumeru stays safe.
...we purged the forbidden knowledge from Teyvat by erasing it from Irminsul. But... Apep's heart, which had been heavily polluted by forbidden knowledge, was left as a void. The elemental energy inside of it couldn't be regulated, and if it had perished, all of it would have been released and thrown the natural order of things out of balance. Ecosystems would be devastated, the people would suffer...
[she shakes her head.]
Apep hates me and the other gods. But, I had to try to heal it, or else it would be bad for Sumeru.
So even though it treated you that way after being healed...
[her willingness to do it for the good of sumeru anyway is EXACTLY WHY he will continue to think anyone who has issues with this god are wrong, thank you very much.]
Yes. I'm not sure I'll ever understand it, and I don't think it will ever understand me. But it's allowed to think what it wants of me or speak to me however it wants as long as Sumeru is safe from threat.
...so that's who carmen was. inwardly, nahida is a little enraged at this place for taking someone so important to him and using her against him on his cyoa.]
...see? You want to live. That's why I don't want to just erase you for points.
[and she does, really. he'd had that resolve the first time around, when he took part in the experiment to revive carmen. not to live, but - to use his life, so that someone else could have a chance at theirs.
now he wants both.]
...so I won't... [her voice is a little shaky.] I won't say that I won't erase you, if it comes to that. But I hope you understand why I hope that it won't come to that point.
I guess- as much as it sucks to think about, I think there's a little logic to it too? I don't wanna duck responsibility or anything, but the thing is... if you guys go for it, and we help you, the whole point is gonna be making sure you don't get caught. If we help erase someone and get voted for, that's one or maybe two for you, and we're out.
We help you, then you take us out after? Three, at least.
Yes, I can see the logic behind that. [otoh we would never be allowed to take out another victim and then both of you logistically] But if we choose one or two victims one week, you help by checkingn us for injuries and the like at trial, we get away with it, and then we get one or two more... that's four, potentially. Six, after that, if we need a last-minute boost and use the two of you for that.
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I think... Justice is probably only one ahead of my team. I think Fukuzawa was probably their first culprit. [she looks down] Putting that on Froggystyle's shoulders is a lot. If I could, I would take the burden from them myself.
...do you still think my team is a good choice for this? Even though we're far behind?
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If it really came to it-- you wouldn't have our help anymore, but we could give you a pretty big boost, if Yuzu agreed. Help you out, then, uh... give you the points from erasing us both. I'd rather they go to someone we choose than just losing one of us.
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...mm. If we're going to do something like that, we need to make absolutely sure that whoever gets that boost is someone we can trust to use the points the way that would be best for the group as a whole. Whether that's my team or another... I'll definitely let yo know.
[...]
But I'd really... I'd really prefer to earn the points another way. You're my friend, and I care about you. And I feel the same way about Yuzuriha. WHen we get to the end of all of this, I want you to be at my side, instead of somewhere off in the distance, waiting for me to bring you back.
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I want to live, don't get me wrong, and I want to be able to actually help instead of just wait for you. I'm not exactly in any hurry to risk everything. But it wouldn't be the first time I gave my life up, except this time...
This time it would mean more than just-- being okay with dying if it all went wrong. I didn't think I had anything to live for, then.
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well, um.
i don't know how to say this other than she just hugs him. tightly.]
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It's okay. Like I said-- that was in the past.
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[speaking of the past here comes a pig. (this one goes until the video ends.)]
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[...it doesn't sound like nahida was wrong to call it insane.]
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[she shakes her head.]
Apep hates me and the other gods. But, I had to try to heal it, or else it would be bad for Sumeru.
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[her willingness to do it for the good of sumeru anyway is EXACTLY WHY he will continue to think anyone who has issues with this god are wrong, thank you very much.]
Then it was worth it, right?
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Yes. I'm not sure I'll ever understand it, and I don't think it will ever understand me. But it's allowed to think what it wants of me or speak to me however it wants as long as Sumeru is safe from threat.
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[and why she's trustworthy, in his eyes.
the pigs aren't done this time either, though, so in return she gets some backstory, to 22:16.]
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...so that's who carmen was. inwardly, nahida is a little enraged at this place for taking someone so important to him and using her against him on his cyoa.]
...see? You want to live. That's why I don't want to just erase you for points.
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I do. But I want all of us to live-- I want to see everyone we've already lost again. If there's a chance, then I'll take it.
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[and she does, really. he'd had that resolve the first time around, when he took part in the experiment to revive carmen. not to live, but - to use his life, so that someone else could have a chance at theirs.
now he wants both.]
...so I won't... [her voice is a little shaky.] I won't say that I won't erase you, if it comes to that. But I hope you understand why I hope that it won't come to that point.
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I guess- as much as it sucks to think about, I think there's a little logic to it too? I don't wanna duck responsibility or anything, but the thing is... if you guys go for it, and we help you, the whole point is gonna be making sure you don't get caught. If we help erase someone and get voted for, that's one or maybe two for you, and we're out.
We help you, then you take us out after? Three, at least.
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[she nods]
Yes, I can see the logic behind that. [otoh we would never be allowed to take out another victim and then both of you logistically] But if we choose one or two victims one week, you help by checkingn us for injuries and the like at trial, we get away with it, and then we get one or two more... that's four, potentially. Six, after that, if we need a last-minute boost and use the two of you for that.
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We... I won't say it without Yuzu, but I think what we can do would help. We decided we'd tell you if we all go for it.
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...thank you. I know this couldn't be an easy decision to make.
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Thank you for trusting me.
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