actually seems panicked at that. there's a spike of I don't want to hurt you too! that drowns out the static in her thoughts, and she backs away from shenhe's hand.]
she couldn't hear them there. she looks up, hopeful. that's a difference, so - does that mean it's really over? that they broke out of the loop after all?
she looks hopeful, but terrified. if these hopes are dashed, then...]
You want to make Alhaitham drink a spicy avacado cola so Kaveh will laugh. [she watches her, head tilted just a little.] Alhaitham is someone from Teyvat?
slowly - cautiously - nahida reaches out to take her hand. when they make contact, she watches her worriedly, like she's afraid shenhe will vanish before her very eyes.]
shenhe doesn't vanish. she doesn't peel away from reality, bit by bit. she stays exactly where she is, and nahida can still feel the warmth of her hand.
...
after a few moments of this, nahida surges forward and hugs her tightly.]
shenhe isn't expecting it, but - she adjusts quickly enough. nahida hugs her, and shenhe wraps her arms around her and hugs her back, warm and steady and real. she's gotten better at hugging, over time - she's not clumsy anymore. it's nice, that this is something she's been able to learn.
carefully, she rests a hand on the back of nahida's head, and the other on her back, and holds on as long as nahida wants.]
...it's not just the things I'm seeing that hurt. It's... what I did, too.
[Even if this isn't in another loop, I could still...
the rest of that thought is drowned out by a multitude of voices talking over each other, to the point that it's impossible to clearly make out what they're saying.]
[or - well, she doesn't know exactly, but she can guess. there's a little flicker of two names - wolfwood and nahri, but it's not at the forefront of her thoughts.]
You can talk about what happened, but I don't need to know if you don't want to. [...] Perhaps with alcohol.
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[she nods slowly]
...but what if this is another loop...?
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What would convince you that it isn't?
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[she shakes her head, and there's a stray thought -
There's no way to prove we aren't in another loop.]
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Just time. [she extends a hand.] I am here with you. [I'm not Kaveh, but I will have to do.] I won't leave you.
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actually seems panicked at that. there's a spike of I don't want to hurt you too! that drowns out the static in her thoughts, and she backs away from shenhe's hand.]
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she frowns, but - the thought is familiar.]
You won't. [she says, firmly. she keeps her hand out.] You can't. [Remember what they said. They said things to help you. You have to try.]
You haven't hurt anybody, it wasn't real. But I understand. Did you have to kill people you care about?
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[she takes a deep, shuddering breath, and stares at shenhe's hand.
I wasn't Gnosia in the last loop, but I could be now. I don't want her to disappear.]
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I won't. [I won't disappear.] ... Could you hear their thoughts, on your mission? I can hear yours. You are worried you could be Gnosia. You are not.
[I don't know what that is, but I know you aren't.]
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[...
oh.
she couldn't hear them there. she looks up, hopeful. that's a difference, so - does that mean it's really over? that they broke out of the loop after all?
she looks hopeful, but terrified. if these hopes are dashed, then...]
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Think something, and I will tell you what you thought. Tell me what I am thinking.
[Can you hear me? I am thinking about cats. I am thinking about ice cream, and donuts.]
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[I want to make Alhaitham drink a spicy avocado cola so Kaveh will laugh.]
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You want to make Alhaitham drink a spicy avacado cola so Kaveh will laugh. [she watches her, head tilted just a little.] Alhaitham is someone from Teyvat?
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He and Kaveh argue a lot...
[shenhe could hear what she was thinking.
slowly - cautiously - nahida reaches out to take her hand. when they make contact, she watches her worriedly, like she's afraid shenhe will vanish before her very eyes.]
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You're free from it. [three things. three things you can see. three things you can feel. three things you can hear.] You are back in Shibuya.
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shenhe doesn't vanish. she doesn't peel away from reality, bit by bit. she stays exactly where she is, and nahida can still feel the warmth of her hand.
...
after a few moments of this, nahida surges forward and hugs her tightly.]
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shenhe isn't expecting it, but - she adjusts quickly enough. nahida hugs her, and shenhe wraps her arms around her and hugs her back, warm and steady and real. she's gotten better at hugging, over time - she's not clumsy anymore. it's nice, that this is something she's been able to learn.
carefully, she rests a hand on the back of nahida's head, and the other on her back, and holds on as long as nahida wants.]
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...thank you, Shenhe.
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Of course. [she murmurs.] ... Last week, I also saw things when I returned. I know how it can hurt.
[a pause.] I am glad that I can help you.
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[Even if this isn't in another loop, I could still...
the rest of that thought is drowned out by a multitude of voices talking over each other, to the point that it's impossible to clearly make out what they're saying.]
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[or - well, she doesn't know exactly, but she can guess. there's a little flicker of two names - wolfwood and nahri, but it's not at the forefront of her thoughts.]
You can talk about what happened, but I don't need to know if you don't want to. [...] Perhaps with alcohol.
[someone has been teaching her bad habits]
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...that might help. Vash used to invite me to drink with him after trials.
[lmao]
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... That was nice of him. [she misses vash. hhh.] We can try to find something that doesn't taste horrible.
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There's a tavern in Port Ormos which has a famous spiced cocktail. I wonder if we could find something similar here.
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[would she be mad if shenhe shifted her to give her a piggyback ride... she's going to do that if nahida doesn't protest.]
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it's piggyback time]
Alright... let's go.