[she holds nahida's hand, looking back down. she's got her phone in hand, and it's looping the song that played for wolfwood. for a moment, she struggles with words, and then she kind of just gives up. that's all she can manage right now.]
... I'm fine. You should worry about Fei Du. [she shouldn't be away from him too long, or he's going to try and hurt himself again, she thinks, tiredly. her fingers tighten around her phone, though.]
[I'm worried about both of you. If it hurts, it hurts.
...but, ah - that thought isn't great. fei du is having a really hard time, and understandably so - there are vague sympathetic thoughts there that aren't quite easy to put into words, but they're definitely present.]
I am more sad for Vash and Nahri. [i knew this was coming. i get to see him again. i don't feel things like other people. maybe i am broken.] Thank you for your concern, though.
What? [she wasn't even aware that she thought it, help. she's not flushed or anything but she is. slightly hungover, and the swirling guilt and sadness is making it worse.]
...a part of me expected to see Netzach and Yuzuriha erased this week.
[I didn't want it, but...]
So... I was prepared for them. It hurts, but not as much as it would have if it had come as a shock. [...] I just can't understand why Wolfwood and Luo Wenzhou are dead.
You'll see them soon. [it's what she's been telling people all day. herself included. it doesn't really help, though. she doesn't know that it really helps, to know that they'll be awake, because they still died, and it still hurt.
as for the rest, she just exhales.]
I don't know. [...] We can ask them when they arrive if they know.
[it's not a huge comfort, but - at least they'll be here, instead of being fully erased from existence. that is at least something small they can all cling to.]
...I suppose depending on how the trial goes, we may get answers of some kind, too.
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nahida sits down next to her and takes her hand. her own thoughts, at the moment, are those jumbled, overlapping voices, but she is ignoring them.]
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[she holds nahida's hand, looking back down. she's got her phone in hand, and it's looping the song that played for wolfwood. for a moment, she struggles with words, and then she kind of just gives up. that's all she can manage right now.]
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[yeah, words are hard.
after a few moments, the overlapping voices in nahida's mind quiet, and she gives shenhe's hand a gentle squeeze.
...I'm sorry about Wolfwood. And about Luo Wenzhou.]
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... I'm fine. You should worry about Fei Du. [she shouldn't be away from him too long, or he's going to try and hurt himself again, she thinks, tiredly. her fingers tighten around her phone, though.]
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...but, ah - that thought isn't great. fei du is having a really hard time, and understandably so - there are vague sympathetic thoughts there that aren't quite easy to put into words, but they're definitely present.]
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I am more sad for Vash and Nahri. [i knew this was coming. i get to see him again. i don't feel things like other people. maybe i am broken.] Thank you for your concern, though.
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It's hard, to not be able to be there for them. [...] I would have felt relieved to see Kaveh and Shu again here... I miss them.
[Sad for what the would have to experience to get here... but relieved, too.]
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Yes. I'll be happy to see him when he wakes up. [I feel kind of sick.] It's... difficult, yes? To want them with you, but not, at the same time.
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[it's very difficult, but - that thought gives her pause.]
...sick? What do you mean?
[looking at shenhe's face like are you flushed. do you have a fever.]
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What? [she wasn't even aware that she thought it, help. she's not flushed or anything but she is. slightly hungover, and the swirling guilt and sadness is making it worse.]
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[a pause.]
I do, I guess. It's alright. [...] I felt like this when Rin died, too.
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...that's what I mean. We're all hurting in our own ways, so I think... it's important to check in with each other.
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[...] Are you alright?
[let's not talk about her feelings, they're conflicting and confusing]
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[I didn't want it, but...]
So... I was prepared for them. It hurts, but not as much as it would have if it had come as a shock. [...] I just can't understand why Wolfwood and Luo Wenzhou are dead.
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as for the rest, she just exhales.]
I don't know. [...] We can ask them when they arrive if they know.
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[it's not a huge comfort, but - at least they'll be here, instead of being fully erased from existence. that is at least something small they can all cling to.]
...I suppose depending on how the trial goes, we may get answers of some kind, too.