[did it make sense nahida??? she butchered the story]
well no it doesnt make sense its a bad story aesops stories are all stupid i got self conscious while i was starting to type the real story
the real story is about when i met the wolf he met me on the path and convinced me to stray he ate my grandma and dressed up in her clothes and hid in her bed and when i said he had big teeth he said "the better to eat you with" and when i heard those words i somehow knew exactly what was going to happen i know he was going to eat me or else the woodsman would come just in time as his jaws closed around me and save me he often came by to check on my grandma and my mom always said i should trust him in these sorts of situations
but none of that happened the wolf didnt eat me and the woodsman didnt come i didnt know what to do i knew i was supposed to die or be saved and it was out of my hands and yet nothing was happening nothing happened for a really long time
eventually the wolf told me that i needed to uh i needed to find a way to save myself or id die i didnt want to do it it didnt feel like something id do but i didnt want to die either i just kept thinking that i didnt have to decide because the woodsman would come
im not sure its even that im not sure he let me down he just didnt come for one reason or another
thats what i mean sometimes you have to decide i dont think its wrong to decide that you would rather be nonviolent to the end even if it means you cant go home i really dont but it seems like a lot of people are thinking of it more like i dont have to decide between not hurting anyone and saving my life and my world because its probably a lie or wont happen or something else will happen it makes sense because its hard to get your head around that idea when it feels so completely at odds with the person you think you are
but sometimes youre the only one who can do anything and sometimes the choices you have are pretty narrow so you have to decide
I've been thinking about that a lot, ever since you told me about the message Gerard received.
Logically, I know that what I personally want is not as important as what is best for my world. Teyvat is at stake, so even if I don't want to erase anyone myself... my inaction could potentially result in just that for countless other people.
It should be an easy choice to make.
But... I've been questioning my own judgment so much this week. I can't tell anymore if it feels logical to me because it is, or because I'm trying to justify even considering it to myself.
...thank you for sharing your story with me, Ylfa.
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well no it doesnt make sense its a bad story
aesops stories are all stupid
i got self conscious while i was starting to type the real story
the real story is about when i met the wolf
he met me on the path and convinced me to stray
he ate my grandma and dressed up in her clothes and hid in her bed
and when i said he had big teeth he said "the better to eat you with"
and when i heard those words i somehow knew exactly what was going to happen
i know he was going to eat me
or else the woodsman would come just in time as his jaws closed around me and save me
he often came by to check on my grandma and my mom always said i should trust him in these sorts of situations
but none of that happened
the wolf didnt eat me and the woodsman didnt come
i didnt know what to do
i knew i was supposed to die or be saved and it was out of my hands
and yet nothing was happening
nothing happened for a really long time
eventually the wolf told me that i needed to
uh
i needed to find a way to save myself
or id die
i didnt want to do it
it didnt feel like something id do
but i didnt want to die either
i just kept thinking that i didnt have to decide
because the woodsman would come
but he didnt nahida
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nahida reads this story over, and her heart twinges painfully for ylfa. can someone please just cut this twelve year old a break.]
He let you down.
[if that was a part of ylfa's story, as it were - the way it was supposed to go - then the woodsman really dropped the ball.
but ylfa's been through so many different things already. isn't her story whatever she makes of her life?]
...is it feeling like you're in that sort of situation again?
Not waiting for him to come, exactly. But... waiting for something to change.
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im not sure its even that
im not sure he let me down
he just didnt come for one reason or another
thats what i mean
sometimes you have to decide
i dont think its wrong to decide that you would rather be nonviolent to the end even if it means you cant go home
i really dont
but it seems like a lot of people are thinking of it more like
i dont have to decide between not hurting anyone and saving my life and my world
because its probably a lie or wont happen or something else will happen
it makes sense because its hard to get your head around that idea
when it feels so completely at odds with the person you think you are
but sometimes youre the only one who can do anything and sometimes the choices you have are pretty narrow
so you have to decide
thats all
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I've been thinking about that a lot, ever since you told me about the message Gerard received.
Logically, I know that what I personally want is not as important as what is best for my world. Teyvat is at stake, so even if I don't want to erase anyone myself... my inaction could potentially result in just that for countless other people.
It should be an easy choice to make.
But... I've been questioning my own judgment so much this week. I can't tell anymore if it feels logical to me because it is, or because I'm trying to justify even considering it to myself.
...thank you for sharing your story with me, Ylfa.
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this week has been so hard
but i believe in you nahida
whatever you decide is the right thing to fight for
is probably right
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I will try not to lose it.