[ frowns deeply at cave... but that's fine we don't need to linger on that. ]
I heard from Setsu—a little bit. And I can tell you that at least two of those three people were still around today. Not—wherever you were. Probably all three.
[ seeing as how shu showed up just fine but wasn't part of their group. ]
... I know that it doesn't fix that it felt real at the time, but—I don't think this place would let you go home. Even for a little while. So... I don't know. Obviously part of it was real. But...
[ ... ]
Just because someone needs help doesn't mean—it's not like that means you can always do anything.
[ and she has a lot of tangled thoughts here - about how the dominant religion in her world is more of a concept-to-send-prayers-to than anything that's expected to stop bad things from happening. and about how nahida is still just a person even if she's an archon, and she's still been dragged down to being just as helpless as alex is in this situation.
but that all feels kind of impossible for a flustered, distressed teen to articulate. so. ]
Sometimes tragedies just—they just happen. And you can only watch.
[definitely. there is no way this could go poorly at all.]
...two of them died in the cave. The last - I got her out, but... she died before I could take her anywhere to get help. That was when I found a portal which took me to where I saw the other three that I came back with... and where we found Shu, Jonas, and Shenhe...
[...]
And they... kept getting hurt, too. I wasn't able to do anything to help them, either.
Edited (one of these days i will stop typing samll instead of small) 2023-06-23 06:01 (UTC)
... I know it doesn't make it suck less. Or, like, make it less messed up what you went through. But if those three were completely fine when you got out, then like... Maybe even if the other three were real—wherever they are now, they're fine too.
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[her brows furrow as she thinks back on it.]
I can remember what was going on now, but... [...] ...my thoughts... they were like they would have been a very long time ago.
I think that was me when I was... younger.
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[ well nahida younger looked like a nahida older, but alex can kind of assume that's got something to do with the archon and memory loss things. ]
Just—why did it happen? Was it part of the game?
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[though that may uhhhh be a bit since someone will be dead later tonight. nahida refuses to think about that right now.]
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[ nosy... ]
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...there was a monster there. And... three other people. [a beat.] Not the three I came back with.
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I heard from Setsu—a little bit. And I can tell you that at least two of those three people were still around today. Not—wherever you were. Probably all three.
[ seeing as how shu showed up just fine but wasn't part of their group. ]
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[she shakes her head.]
No... the people in the cave with me were different from the ones we found later.
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[...]
I wasn't able to save them... even though they called out to me for help.
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[ ... ]
Just because someone needs help doesn't mean—it's not like that means you can always do anything.
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[she is a god.]
If I can't even do that much, how can I call myself a worthy archon...?
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[ and she has a lot of tangled thoughts here - about how the dominant religion in her world is more of a concept-to-send-prayers-to than anything that's expected to stop bad things from happening. and about how nahida is still just a person even if she's an archon, and she's still been dragged down to being just as helpless as alex is in this situation.
but that all feels kind of impossible for a flustered, distressed teen to articulate. so. ]
Sometimes tragedies just—they just happen. And you can only watch.
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...I'm sorry. I shouldn't be burdening you with this.
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...maybe that's true...
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It is. So you can say whatever you want to say.
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...two of them died in the cave. The last - I got her out, but... she died before I could take her anywhere to get help. That was when I found a portal which took me to where I saw the other three that I came back with... and where we found Shu, Jonas, and Shenhe...
[...]
And they... kept getting hurt, too. I wasn't able to do anything to help them, either.
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... I know it doesn't make it suck less. Or, like, make it less messed up what you went through. But if those three were completely fine when you got out, then like... Maybe even if the other three were real—wherever they are now, they're fine too.
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[
time to repress her feelings!]
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Well. We'll—we'll ask the Reapers about it as soon as we can. And they should be able to help us figure this out.
Okay?
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That's a good idea... I'll ask them. [...] Maybe in a few days.
[they will soon have murder and a trial to deal with, she's not going to heap her #trauma on the reapers]
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I can get it to you fast. Drift Aura and all.
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