...it can't have been easy on him - none of this can have been. I wish we could see him again. [...] ...but not because he ended up over here. I think he and the others may be afraid of that, because of the numbers.
It has been... interesting, to be here, and to have seen the reaction of the people on the other side. [way less stressful, for one.] I have struggled with the feeling of... relief, I suppose, when someone I care for ends up here. I know it is inappropriate.
... I told Vash that it is okay if teams of two end up here, and that it isn't so bad. I hope that eases their minds, a little.
...it's more peaceful here, it feels like. So I don't know that it's necessarily inappropriate. I almost feel a little guilty...
[Kaveh wanted to take my place here so badly. Did I just make things harder on him by refusing to allow him into the erasure with me?]
Netzach had offered to allow me to erase him and Yuzuriha for the points. I was vehemently opposed to it at the time, because I thought that meant the overall cost to save everyone would go up. But... After we were told it was okay, I told him I would understand if he pursued that strategy, even if I didn't like it.
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... Yes. I do too. There's only so much that words can do. [...] I worry about Jonas. His letter to me alarmed me, a little.
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...it can't have been easy on him - none of this can have been. I wish we could see him again. [...] ...but not because he ended up over here. I think he and the others may be afraid of that, because of the numbers.
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... I told Vash that it is okay if teams of two end up here, and that it isn't so bad. I hope that eases their minds, a little.
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[Kaveh wanted to take my place here so badly. Did I just make things harder on him by refusing to allow him into the erasure with me?]
Netzach had offered to allow me to erase him and Yuzuriha for the points. I was vehemently opposed to it at the time, because I thought that meant the overall cost to save everyone would go up. But... After we were told it was okay, I told him I would understand if he pursued that strategy, even if I didn't like it.
So that is at least two teams who know.