...you're his god. I'm sure he feels like he failed you somehow by letting this happen and wants to find a way to save you instead of letting you disappear.
I got that impression. I think...he doesn't know what to do with himself half the time if he can't make things perfectly to his design. [ ... ] We'll do our best to take care of him. Shu, too.
All things considered, I think it's fine to be a little selfish when someone offers. But that's just me.
[ because yes, nahida did in fact murder someone. and jonas is aware this is extremely biased to be kinder to her than he would ever be to setsu's killer if he ever finds them. but overall...nahida is his friend still. and they're all in a shitty situation. and as someone who has had plenty of friends turn their backs on him because of things he's done, the least he can do is try to be better than that. ]
...I just want more time with the people I care about.
[she sighs]
I don't plan to sleep tonight. I want to be here, with everyone, for as long as I can... and it will feel like time is going by faster if I fall asleep. But I know I can't just ask everyone to stay awake with me, either.
I think that's what most people want in their last moments. [ he thinks about this slowly. ]
People can figure it out in shifts. Everybody keeps different hours. I'm sure people will stay awake as long as they can to be with you if you ask them. But if they don't know you want company...they might not think about it. People are funny that way.
...I thought maybe it might be easier for some people... if we treated it like any other Saturday night. If we just talked like we normally did, and said goodnight, but...
It feels like...giving them false hope a little, right? Like saying goodnight is a promise you'll see them again the next day even when you know that's not true. I think I can understand that. [ ... ] Maybe there isn't one answer that suits everybody. Maybe the best you can do is talk to each person who comes to find you tonight and ask them what they'd like to do. Let them tell you themselves.
If it was easy, it wouldn't feel so bad to have to figure it out. [ it sounds the tiniest bit callous, but it's factual. ] And I think that just means you still care a lot about how other people feel about this sort of thing.
...I think we each do, in our own way. [...] But an inconvenient truth is still a truth.
And the truth is, we needed a culprit. I don't think anyone could have lived with it if we'd guessed wrong. It hurt badly enough the first time. [her ears droop] ...I just wish I had done better at helping you figure out what happened to Setsu. I'm sorry, Jonas.
[ there's a low hum to that, frowning to himself. ]
...whoever's responsible for what happened to them really made it hard to sort the evidence. There was...a lot of fire involved this weekend. Maybe Simon was involved, but I don't think that's it. Something else happened, and I'm going to keep looking to find out what it was. We're not going to stop until we find them.
And in the meantime...all three of us are going to miss you.
I doubt that he was. It sounds like he had his hands full with whoever went after him. [(gazes at the gyd and laughs)] ...so I think - what happened to Setsu must have been separate from that.
I'll miss the three of you, too. [...] I wish it could have gone differently... I really wanted to stay and help.
...I think so, too. It means whoever did this got away with it, and they're still here. And it means as soon as I find out, they're gonna have to answer for it.
[ don't just lowkey threaten people? but he seems to think better of it when nahida continues and he frowns softly. ]
I wish things had gone differently, too. But I think I accepted a long time ago that this game was never going to be good. This was always bound to happen. [ ... ] But knowing you? You'll find a different way to help anyway.
[i mean. she does not dissuade him from his lowkey threats; she just nods. as much as she doesn't like causing harm to living beings... she can understand the feeling. she was so angry with yang guifei, when they found out she had killed hikari. if anyone had hurt either kaveh or shu, especially in the later weeks...]
I'll... try to find a way. I don't want to just leave you and have that be the end of it.
...it won't be. I get what you mean, but it won't be the end of things. I doubt any of us would let it just fade out like that. We'll figure something out as soon as we can.
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I'm at the park with the swing.
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instead, he approaches the park a little while later, and he seeks her out before settling next to her. ]
...been a while since I've been here. Shenhe and I used to sit up in the tree before we got the outer park.
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[shenhe... will she be seeing her again soon? is it selfish to hope for that?]
I come here to help me think, sometimes.
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[ mm... ]
What are you thinking about now?
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[...]
He's really - I've really upset him...
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He's... he's too hard on himself.
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...thank you, Jonas. I know I can count on you to look out for them.
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she looks down, contemplating that.]
...it feels a little selfish to ask for anything.
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[ because yes, nahida did in fact murder someone. and jonas is aware this is extremely biased to be kinder to her than he would ever be to setsu's killer if he ever finds them. but overall...nahida is his friend still. and they're all in a shitty situation. and as someone who has had plenty of friends turn their backs on him because of things he's done, the least he can do is try to be better than that. ]
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[she sighs]
I don't plan to sleep tonight. I want to be here, with everyone, for as long as I can... and it will feel like time is going by faster if I fall asleep. But I know I can't just ask everyone to stay awake with me, either.
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People can figure it out in shifts. Everybody keeps different hours. I'm sure people will stay awake as long as they can to be with you if you ask them. But if they don't know you want company...they might not think about it. People are funny that way.
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That doesn't feel right, either.
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That makes sense.
...I wish this was easier. But, I don't think this is the sort of thing that's supposed to be easy.
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And the truth is, we needed a culprit. I don't think anyone could have lived with it if we'd guessed wrong. It hurt badly enough the first time. [her ears droop] ...I just wish I had done better at helping you figure out what happened to Setsu. I'm sorry, Jonas.
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...whoever's responsible for what happened to them really made it hard to sort the evidence. There was...a lot of fire involved this weekend. Maybe Simon was involved, but I don't think that's it. Something else happened, and I'm going to keep looking to find out what it was. We're not going to stop until we find them.
And in the meantime...all three of us are going to miss you.
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I'll miss the three of you, too. [...] I wish it could have gone differently... I really wanted to stay and help.
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[ don't just lowkey threaten people? but he seems to think better of it when nahida continues and he frowns softly. ]
I wish things had gone differently, too. But I think I accepted a long time ago that this game was never going to be good. This was always bound to happen. [ ... ] But knowing you? You'll find a different way to help anyway.
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I'll... try to find a way. I don't want to just leave you and have that be the end of it.
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I believe in you. So... I'll look forward to seeing what you come up with, and I'll do everything I can to help.