He wouldn't say either way. Just - something about how the trial was a waste of time.
But the way he was acting while we were in there, and even after... As easy as it would be to blame him, I didn't think it actually was. It didn't feel right.
I don't understand what could make someone like that in the first place.
Maybe if it were easier to ignore, it wouldn't be so bad. He just keeps drawing attention to himself, though. It's like he really wants people to hate him.
The people who I've met who became like that... it was because they were never treated with much, or any, kindness in their lives. It's the sort of thing that builds up over time.
...I don't really know him well enough to know if that's the case for him, though.
Acting like that won't make anyone want to be any nicer to them, though.
[ except for the people who are too nice for their own good. ]
...I think he was surprised, when I assumed it wasn't him. Did everyone just assume he did, or something?
[ there's a degree of confusion in his voice, like he doesn't fully understand why they would, even though rang does position himself for it. kazuki had only the smallest doubt, but otherwise it seemed obvious enough to him, once the vote came through. ]
From what he said today... a fair amount of people seemed to, and may have approached him last night under the assumption that it was him to demand answers.
[so.
that's a thing.]
Perhaps it's a bit of self-fulfilling prophecy, but if that's how people treated him even before coming here... [she shakes her head.] ...I don't know. He seemed tired, when I spoke with him last night.
I feel a bit sorry for him, but I think it would upset him if he knew I was pitying him.
People keep telling me we should stop trying to understand it - something about the rules we're used to not applying here. It still reminds me of home, though. Like it's meant to be someone's messed up kind of justice.
I don't think it really is, though. Justice, I mean.
It's true that there are some situations where that's all you can do... [she sighs] There are some people you can never understand, and they will never understand you in turn. Sometimes, you're simply too fundamentally different.
I've caught myself wondering a few times if this is one of those cases... if the powers behind the Reaper's Game, and thus their rules, are simply beyond our comprehension.
[...she shakes her head.]
Whatever this is, it doesn't feel like any sort of justice that I'm familiar with. But you're right... this does feel like it could be someone's idea of justice. Just not ours.
They're a terrorist group back home. Their whole thing is "justice," and they kill whoever they say deserves it, but it's not really clear what that actually means to them, so.
You'd be right. They've got their own standards for it that they aren't letting anyone else in on, and all that means is now people are scared that they'll get shot down for telling a white lie, or something. Everyone's done something wrong in their life before, you know?
...And I know it's not, like, a competition, but... a bunch of other people here have been through way worse. So I don't want to complain too much, either.
If you don't want to complain about it because you really don't want to, that's fine... but if you don't want to just because other people have experienced things that are also hard, that's a little...
[she shrugs.]
...if it's hard, it's hard. Like you said, it isn't a competition. I don't mind listening if you do ever want to complain about it.
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[and then, after a moment, since kazuki had left once he saw both the people who were in the execution - ]
Count D was erased.
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So I was right... it really wasn't Lee-san. He really couldn't just say that, could he.
[ ANNOYING. ]
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Did he tell you something else? Or... did he just not say anything to you at all?
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But the way he was acting while we were in there, and even after... As easy as it would be to blame him, I didn't think it actually was. It didn't feel right.
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[she sighs deeply.]
No, it didn't. But from the sound of it... a lot of people were willing to believe it was him.
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It's stupid. He pisses me off.
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[he reminds her a lot of scaramouche in some ways..........]
...but I can understand that it must be frustrating to see them being that way, over and over again.
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Maybe if it were easier to ignore, it wouldn't be so bad. He just keeps drawing attention to himself, though. It's like he really wants people to hate him.
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...I don't really know him well enough to know if that's the case for him, though.
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[ except for the people who are too nice for their own good. ]
...I think he was surprised, when I assumed it wasn't him. Did everyone just assume he did, or something?
[ there's a degree of confusion in his voice, like he doesn't fully understand why they would, even though rang does position himself for it. kazuki had only the smallest doubt, but otherwise it seemed obvious enough to him, once the vote came through. ]
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[so.
that's a thing.]
Perhaps it's a bit of self-fulfilling prophecy, but if that's how people treated him even before coming here... [she shakes her head.] ...I don't know. He seemed tired, when I spoke with him last night.
I feel a bit sorry for him, but I think it would upset him if he knew I was pitying him.
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[ annoying. he's like a bratty child throwing a tantrum. ]
This is so stupid. This whole game was a mistake.
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[rang is so funny but also so much]
...I still don't quite understand why it had to be this way.
[me @ nahida: please stop questioning why murdergames work the way they do this is exhausting]
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I don't think it really is, though. Justice, I mean.
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I've caught myself wondering a few times if this is one of those cases... if the powers behind the Reaper's Game, and thus their rules, are simply beyond our comprehension.
[...she shakes her head.]
Whatever this is, it doesn't feel like any sort of justice that I'm familiar with. But you're right... this does feel like it could be someone's idea of justice. Just not ours.
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[ at least from a normie perspective. this is so beyond him. ]
It's more in line with Adonis than anything, except they don't hold trials like this.
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[i may be canon familiar, but nahida is not]
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They're a terrorist group back home. Their whole thing is "justice," and they kill whoever they say deserves it, but it's not really clear what that actually means to them, so.
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hmm. nahida frowns at that.]
...that sounds more like a mockery of justice to me.
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That sounds like it must be terrible to have to be going through...
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[ bluntly! ]
...And I know it's not, like, a competition, but... a bunch of other people here have been through way worse. So I don't want to complain too much, either.
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[she shrugs.]
...if it's hard, it's hard. Like you said, it isn't a competition. I don't mind listening if you do ever want to complain about it.
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...The same goes for you, though.
[ he'll listen, if nahida ever has something to complain about. ]
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...I know. Thank you, Kazuki.