I would hope there shouldn't be anything against that. It's just... as a whole, the group has nearly always prioritized voting for a culprit when they could find one. I worry that if they're too obvious about voting for her instead of a culprit, then it might invite intense scrutiny on the results and the points... and scrutiny is the last thing anyone needs when we're trying to find the right time to transfer the points that we've earned here to the team that's in the lead.
Given our behavior up until now, it would look unnatural to spend all that time investigating and then swing to vote for her if there was anyone else. If it's confusing enough that they can't settle on a culprit, though, it would make more sense.
[If they did it that way... it will be fine. But I don't think I'll stop worrying until we see what the evidence looks like.]
...yes. If this was something they chose - and I believe that it was, from the conversations I had with them before I died... this was something they didn't consider lightly, and something that would have taken strength of will to follow through with. [...] I understand that, and I admire them for it. It's just... selfishly, I wish they hadn't felt like they had to die.
Valerie's curse made sure of that. I wasn't in my right mind... Doing more than I did to cover it up wasn't something I was capable of considering at the time. It wasn't until Nahri broke the curse at the end that I really came back to myself, but at that point...
[it was too late.]
...besides, as far as numbers go, it was as close as we could get to a good outcome. No team was fully wiped out, and because they caught me, the teams in the lead earned more points. Considering that, my personal feelings about where I want to be aren't important.
I wasn't, but... he did what he could. It would have looked more suspicious if he couldn't use his secondary Psych at all.
[Huh? ...oh.]
I don't mean to be self-abasing. Just... pragmatic, is all. Looking at the situation overall, it's not the worst outcome. I can be satisfied with that.
I won't pretend that I feel good about it. [she may have believed that valerie was the best choice of their available options - but she is just a teenager. almost everyone here other than the immortals seems so terribly young to her already, but the teens... especially so.] But, it was necessary, so I'd do it again if I had to, regardless of my feelings about it.
[ it's not something lambda can relate to. she'd murder valerie just for being annoying, if she didn't also think she was so insignificant. murder isn't inherently terrible to her. ]
You hold more feelings about it than most gods would.
Mm. Some of us may not like it, but not liking it doesn't change the reality of our situation. [her gaze drifts back to the screens, watching people react to the deda announcements and so on.] ...but we'll get through this.
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Given our behavior up until now, it would look unnatural to spend all that time investigating and then swing to vote for her if there was anyone else. If it's confusing enough that they can't settle on a culprit, though, it would make more sense.
[If they did it that way... it will be fine. But I don't think I'll stop worrying until we see what the evidence looks like.]
...yes. If this was something they chose - and I believe that it was, from the conversations I had with them before I died... this was something they didn't consider lightly, and something that would have taken strength of will to follow through with. [...] I understand that, and I admire them for it. It's just... selfishly, I wish they hadn't felt like they had to die.
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[ at least, she only bothered to vote right when she did because it was a points thing.
she shrugs. ]
You know how the mechanics of that side work more than I do, so if you're that worried, I'll defer to your judgment on that.
If that's the case, as long as they don't look too deeply into it, their choice shouldn't all be in vain.
[ it hurts me that lambda is so insensitive and pragmatic about it, but here she is. ]
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...we'll just have to wait and see what happens.
[she sighs deeply.
I hate only being able to watch.]
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You could have made it harder to catch you, if you still wanted to be over there.
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[she smiles faintly.]
Valerie's curse made sure of that. I wasn't in my right mind... Doing more than I did to cover it up wasn't something I was capable of considering at the time. It wasn't until Nahri broke the curse at the end that I really came back to myself, but at that point...
[it was too late.]
...besides, as far as numbers go, it was as close as we could get to a good outcome. No team was fully wiped out, and because they caught me, the teams in the lead earned more points. Considering that, my personal feelings about where I want to be aren't important.
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[ it's not like shu wasn't also there. ]
We are all focused on the greater goal, but that kind of self-abased attitude is annoying.
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[Huh? ...oh.]
I don't mean to be self-abasing. Just... pragmatic, is all. Looking at the situation overall, it's not the worst outcome. I can be satisfied with that.
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Pragmatism is more than fine, but I think you've been down on yourself ever since you killed Valerie.
[ it's just an observation. ]
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You hold more feelings about it than most gods would.
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...inaction would actually do more harm overall.
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[she nods again]
Mm. Some of us may not like it, but not liking it doesn't change the reality of our situation. [her gaze drifts back to the screens, watching people react to the deda announcements and so on.] ...but we'll get through this.