[homophonic] catchall for mysterious alter ego Λ

[dendroculi]

MYSTERIOUS
ALTER EGO Λ

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[diluvian]

It is something that gives points.

[ at least, she only bothered to vote right when she did because it was a points thing.

she shrugs. ]

You know how the mechanics of that side work more than I do, so if you're that worried, I'll defer to your judgment on that.

If that's the case, as long as they don't look too deeply into it, their choice shouldn't all be in vain.

[ it hurts me that lambda is so insensitive and pragmatic about it, but here she is. ]

[dendroculi]

[and then it turned out kyoko killed a man anyway so all of nahida's worrying was pointless]

...we'll just have to wait and see what happens.

[she sighs deeply.

I hate only being able to watch.]

[diluvian]

[ it's fine... it's good that nahida worries. ]

You could have made it harder to catch you, if you still wanted to be over there.

[dendroculi]

No, I couldn't have.

[she smiles faintly.]

Valerie's curse made sure of that. I wasn't in my right mind... Doing more than I did to cover it up wasn't something I was capable of considering at the time. It wasn't until Nahri broke the curse at the end that I really came back to myself, but at that point...

[it was too late.]

...besides, as far as numbers go, it was as close as we could get to a good outcome. No team was fully wiped out, and because they caught me, the teams in the lead earned more points. Considering that, my personal feelings about where I want to be aren't important.

[diluvian]

You weren't alone, though, weren't you?

[ it's not like shu wasn't also there. ]

We are all focused on the greater goal, but that kind of self-abased attitude is annoying.

[dendroculi]

I wasn't, but... he did what he could. It would have looked more suspicious if he couldn't use his secondary Psych at all.

[Huh? ...oh.]

I don't mean to be self-abasing. Just... pragmatic, is all. Looking at the situation overall, it's not the worst outcome. I can be satisfied with that.

[diluvian]

[ she tilts her head. ]

Pragmatism is more than fine, but I think you've been down on yourself ever since you killed Valerie.

[ it's just an observation. ]

[dendroculi]

I won't pretend that I feel good about it. [she may have believed that valerie was the best choice of their available options - but she is just a teenager. almost everyone here other than the immortals seems so terribly young to her already, but the teens... especially so.] But, it was necessary, so I'd do it again if I had to, regardless of my feelings about it.

[diluvian]

[ it's not something lambda can relate to. she'd murder valerie just for being annoying, if she didn't also think she was so insignificant. murder isn't inherently terrible to her. ]

You hold more feelings about it than most gods would.

[dendroculi]

...maybe it's because I'm younger than the other Archons.

[diluvian]

That could be it, but I feel like it's core to you, too.

[dendroculi]

...hehe... maybe. Causing harm to living beings has never felt quite right to me, but... sometimes it's unavoidable.

[diluvian]

The way this entire game is structured makes it unavoidable.

[dendroculi]

[she nods]

...inaction would actually do more harm overall.

[diluvian]

Especially if you wanted to keep everyone from being erased.

[dendroculi]

...

[she nods again]

Mm. Some of us may not like it, but not liking it doesn't change the reality of our situation. [her gaze drifts back to the screens, watching people react to the deda announcements and so on.] ...but we'll get through this.