...accepting it doesn't really make it any easier.
[she stares down at her bottle.]
It shouldn't have... it feels like it shouldn't have happened. [she sighs and takes another drink] ...I know it's in the rulebook, that it can happen. And I know what we've been told about points and what we need them for.
It shouldn't. [ His shoulders shake, as if tears will come, but they don't. ] ...I can't help but think I'm here because someone else died.
[ And that's rough for him for a number of reasons. Usually, he'd keep this to himself, but
he confides in her, CONFIDENTLY. Maybe it is because she's a god and he had been looking for an answer to his prayers for so long, but he also knows better. She's a person, too. ]
[the way i got mixed up and thought this was the saturday pc and almost had nahida say something about having killed someone here help]
I feel similarly. I'm older than most people here, so I thought for sure... that someone would come after me before now, despite my appearance. [...] But, week after week, no one ever did.
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He gives her a wave, too. Here's also your single beer bottle. ]
Bad.
[ that's it ]
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[she takes the bottle of beer and stares at it for a moment before taking a sip and wrinkling her nose.]
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I'm guessing you visited the mourning teams?
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I wish there was more I could do for them... it shouldn't have been like this.
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[ ... ]
I thought they might be overwhelmed, with everything. And the attention.
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...yes. I thought they deserved to know what I found in the salt mines, though... umm, before I tell everyone at the trial tomorrow, anyway.
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[ not like this ]
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No, Simon. I spoke to Justice about it... That's where I found him. [her brow furrows] ...well... we. A llama was there, and it helped me search.
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... You've seen some messages received from Tuesday, right?
[ frees you from llama ]
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Yes. A lot of people received them, from what I heard. I received a lot of them, myself.
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It's already tough with two teens dying, but... I... [ Holding onto his bottle tighter. ] I've accepted it, even if I don't like it.
[ He's sad for Simon, too, despite everything and all they may know. It's complicated, he's conflicted. ]
It's still hard.
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[she stares down at her bottle.]
It shouldn't have... it feels like it shouldn't have happened. [she sighs and takes another drink] ...I know it's in the rulebook, that it can happen. And I know what we've been told about points and what we need them for.
But it shouldn't be this way.
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[ And that's rough for him for a number of reasons. Usually, he'd keep this to himself, but
he confides in her, CONFIDENTLY. Maybe it is because she's a god and he had been looking for an answer to his prayers for so long, but he also knows better. She's a person, too. ]
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...why do you think that, Vash?
[ :( ]
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I've lived a long life already—and so many people here have barely lived at all.
... So it's difficult not to consider that I could have taken their place, but I also have my promise to keep.
[ Him: why no target me ]
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I feel similarly. I'm older than most people here, so I thought for sure... that someone would come after me before now, despite my appearance. [...] But, week after week, no one ever did.
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A lot of us old souls have left, huh.
[ For a while, actually. Kind of sobering. ]
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...yes.
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[ As selfish as that may be, because they're alive atop all of the deaths in the previous weeks.
But it's a little less lonely for them, he thinks. Who's left? Them and Netzach, perhaps? Anyway, NOT FOR LONG. ]
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[he better kEEP BEING HERE.]
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